So three times in the past week I found myself saying the same thing to myself… “Jeeze… I really used to do 2-3 workouts a day… ALL THE TIME?” I don’t remember that. The pain must have blacked it out… And not only did I do them, but all at a higher level. I could run 7 miles at a 7:30 pace in the morning and then ride 30 miles at a 20+ mph pace in the evening. Then get up and do it all over again. And this was only 5 months ago. How the mighty have fallen…
So let’s talk current state of fitness.
The positives: I’m working out again. In the past two weeks I have had 5 multi-workout days. My knees don’t hurt.
The negatives: Everything else hurts.
My legs, lungs and most other body parts are in full rebellion. The fatigue is intense. I’m starving. I can’t sleep.
You know… the usual.
I know it will take 6 months to recover to a point where I can start “improving” again, so I’m trying not to think too much about how slow I am or how I keep blowing up on runs or rides. I’m looking for races again and starting to think about some goals for the fall. Nothing major, and the first one is just to live that long. But I’m looking forward again, which is a big plus.
I also know that I have 25 pounds to lose just to get BACK to the weight I was at when I did Redman, which was 20 pounds over what I should have been. Which, in turn will improve my times and make me feel better.
Now, my most pressing issues are actually equipment based. My shoes are trashed, my helmet is broken (retaining straps) and I’m too fat to fit in my wetsuit. Oh… and I don’t have the money for new stuff. I think the helmet will be OK and I might be able to fix it, but the shoes are a $130 issue. The wetsuit is just something I’m going to have to drop the weight to get back into. I’m not going to buy a new one.
Nothing like a new set of challenges.
However, I couldn’t be happier to have these problems. Because a month ago I was seriously considering selling my stuff and just walking away. I love the fact that I’m bitching about dead shoes. It means I’m running. It’s all good again.
So the short term goals are simple. Make all the workouts. Get back to wetsuit weight. Get past the restart soreness and fatigue. At least be able to hang with the group for the warmup mile. Relax… I think I’m going to be OK…
Now I need a nap. And maybe second breakfast. Elevensies? …sigh…